well, that is a life a gambler, full of anticipation and disappointment. I am sure the majority of gamblers have already felt the feeling you felt(including me).
What I wonder with your story: If you make such good money with betting, why in the world do you owe money to people ?
maybe the OP is paying his debt on a fixed amount per month or maybe he just ignores the debt and doesn't pay at all and avoid the person he owes.
Id we have some kind if debt to be paid ever month then the first thing they have to do is ti find a source of income which gives then constant pay not the one lime gambling which decide the wins based on luck.