it always starts like that for me, but later I pick up the chip and go to the end, it's not worth it, it's like a disease. I realized that I would never be satisfied, and when I decide to either lose everything or take it will never be enough to take to get up, it’s a little confusing but that’s the way it is.
I start with the goal of a young chip, but I will not stop, simply impossible.
I am having similar problems when gambling. The main problem I notice is that I just don't value small winnings as much, my target in gambling is always to go for the big winnings. So I tend to play too long as usually just lose all the previous winnings from the day. It would be awesome to become a high roller one day. I love to watch documentaries about high rollers and their interaction with casinos. Getting free suites, dinners, concert tickets is such a cool lifestyle. There are so many goodies for the VIPs at a casino which all of us standard gamblers will never experience. High rollers are really lucky for such a life.
Sometimes it just looks good on the outside - the whole grass is greener on the otherside thing. I bet $3k on a Blackjack hand once to make up for a losing streak and Luxor didn't bother to even comp me for a room. It was at that moment I quit gambling in Vegas (at least Luxor) because they couldn't even be gracious hosts. One of the other people in my party is a high-roller and gets invited every weekend. He has messed up marriage. I'm happy to not be comped and have a nice family
