You have typical bagholder mentality, where you can no longer view your investment objectively and believe that it can only go up no matter what. Ripple has always been bad, a completely centralized cryptocurrency is worthless, the goal of crypto is to remove centralization in money. It's good that PayPal didn't decide to work with them, and it's clear why - Ripple, as a centralized payment company, is PayPal's direct competitor. Why should they help them?