...If swallowing his shit is what fueled you for the last 4 years then yes, I can see how its a hard addiction to break, which explains the massive levels of cognitive dissonance among Trump's remaining supporters.
It helps to recognize you have Trump Derangement Syndrome. There are people who can help with it. But you wouldn't listen to them.
Do you believe the election was rigged? Do you believe Trump will resume office on Jan. 20th? If the answer to either of these questions is "yes", you got a worse case of TDS than I ever did.