UPDATE:
I have burned myself. I am officially penniless.
Thanks for advice and taking the time to respond anyway, much appreciated.
What have you learned? Lots of people had burned up their capital or money with trading but doesnt mean that this is already the end of the world.You can always go back and try to be wise and smart again with your trades.
Remember that only risk on the amounts that you can afford to lose and dont go overboard because this will really make out mistakes even more.Learn on past mistakes and be careful in the times you are being too greedy.
Next time where you should only spend a dime or sufficient amount to make some sort of practive.Is this decision of yours final? Would you trade again in the future?
I think I will need to stay away, of course. I clearly have a problem, but I was desperate.
Once you're in a deep hole, it's hard to get out.