I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this. Covid and the situations in the world right now are truly having a huge impact on the mental health of people everywhere.  I do feel you are definitely having mood and anxiety issues, probably as well, depression. I don't know where you are located, but here is some help if you're in Canada or US.  I hope this helps and that everything will be well with you.  I would google "free mental health assistance" for your country and make sure that whatever contact you choose that they are actual accredited mental health professionals.

In Canada suicide help line 1-833-456-4566
US Anxiety and Depression Association of America https://adaa.org/