You are posting on a public forum. And not only posting, but asking for money from strangers on the internet and you complain that are mocked by other members?
It is you that don't get it and can't let it go that you have tried to get free money and you failed, so it is you that should move on with your life, because you won't see a cent here without valid collateral. Maybe do something productive and earn a living instead trying to scam on forums.