That is all good, I understand now that I made some sort of mistake. I am not going to try to apply for another loan as I have nothing of value in my possession. It is also good that people are honest with these ratings, but sometimes when things do not go the way you plan them, you get sad. First I saw that my request was denied and then the negative feedback and it made me a bit sad and dissapointed in myself.
First of all, merge your two posts above. You can only post once in a row every 24 hours.
I've given you instruction on how to repair your trust - until you do that it will be hard to get a paid signature. Might be easier to start again with a new account.
We're going to judge you going forward on your actions, and not your words. Good luck!