At some point, you just realize that maybe trading is not for you, and there's really nothing wrong with it! Some people hop professions multiple times before they end up doing something what they're good at, and that they enjoy.

Seriously though, you probably already know this, but just look for another source of income. May it be through jobs, gigs, a business, or whatever. Don't just sit there looking at Coinmarketcap.

Best of luck going forward.