So I got some bonus from bybit.
I longed btc at first with 50x leverage (you do that with 'free' money), but since it was on the rise for last few days, thought it will dip and closed the long, opened short.
Got liquidated soon after.
Had I not closed the long, I would be in several double digit thousands of dollars profit today.
Rip
I do not think that you are actually learning the right lesson out of this, it seems that you are mad because you shorted the market instead of keeping your long position open but that is not what caused your losses, the main reason for your losses was the huge leverage that you were using.
We must remember that the volatility in this market is very high already and that should be more than enough to produce the profits that you need, if you need even more profits than that then most likely the expectations that you have out of the market are wrong, so learn the right lesson out of this and never use leverage again.