So much wasted time and words written without any weight, meaning or real research.
You seriously need to think about asking some kind of medical assistance from shrink if you are really thinking what you wrote, especially when this is coming from someone who distributed malware in his forum posts from 2018

It's impossible to talk with someone with closed mind who don't want to listen so I will not reply anything from this member and just save earth and CO2 with ignore button.