Since you lost your private keys those btcs you were holding are gone. The escape for your misfortune is to not give up and start again learning from your previous mistakes. I know sometimes it's hard to keep motivated to continue persuing a better quality life, because it looks like the chances are slight and there are too many competitors on our way, especially in a country like yours, but the truth is that we don't have another choice.
We get nothing by giving up or uninstalling an important app during a moment of angry, so keep focus, don't waste the opportunities you are going to find ahead, even if they are simple micro jobs and at some time you will see things will start improving again, like on thoes times when you were holding a decent amount of bitcoins.

And of course, it's never too late to start accumulating bitcoins. So start doing it from now on again.