Wow! That's way much debt for an experience @OP. You know, its actually funny how a lot of gamblers go into gambling and believe that, they could actually win a fortune out of it! I've been there once though, your experience with the system is far worst than anything I've been through with gambling. Gambling is actually a business and it profits the owner of the platform more than it does to anyone as the odds on each game is carefully designed that way. The more you set your goals or targets on big wins, the farther or deeper you dig the hole for your own burial.
One thing is having these experience, the next thing is what you learnt and how to get back to your fit. Its always advised not to invest or gamble what you can't afford to lose. So, we must ask ourself at every point before making a stake. What would become of us should we loose the staked amount?
Let's go about gambling responsibly.
That is why I only deposit the amount I feel I am comfortable losing, of course I want to win but I know it might all go to the house so that is how I control myself. I just gamble as much as I can afford losing without depositing too much.
Responsible gambling I think means that we must only gamble what we have spare and aren't too worried of losing it. People spend money on movies don't regret watching it right? Similarly people gambling should not regret losing it.