First - ask yourself this question..

Can you change the expectations - the 'trajectory' of your life - simply by controlling what you choose to think about? - What you choose to let into your own mind ?

Second - to help on this journey, I suggest Dan Miller's book '48 days to work you love' and his related podcast.

Third - After completing the 2 items above, come back to your original question - and reframe it based on your new 'found' knowledge. I believe once you this you will be able to seek the crypto experience you are looking for.

Good Luck!