Forget the past. If you buy regularly from now on, you can hold it for more than 5 years, and you are already more successful than 80% of the people in the forum.
Doing that needs patience as you can't just buy and hold it for at least 5 years. I know about bitcoin on 2018 which not a great year for me to start as I was not what I am right now. Because of the forum it made me achieve what I have now. If not for those who help me like CryptopreneurBrainboss, DdmrDdmr and many more to mention, I wouldn't have been able to hold some bitcoin until now. No one could predicted the outcome of bitcoin's price. I didn't even expect that bitcoin would reach above 60k when years earlier I have bitcoin worth 2000 dollars that time and the current price that time is at 3k. I already know bitcoin that time but I didn't get the chance to store bitcoin. I can totally relate to op how he feels but different situation.