Ignorance of the rules or insufficient knowledge of the language can't be excuses.
To get a new opportunity on this forum you need to admit your mistakes and publicly apologize, and get the support of the forum community based on your importance to this forum.
Since I don’t see any of that happening, I don’t think it’s realistic that you’re going to get a new opportunity on this forum.
Of course, you are free to try but I advise you to change your attitude, stop apologizing and take responsibility for your own mistakes.