if, hallucinations your about private messages are true or not, but the Admin doesn't have time to read your messages and neither me nor other users here, there are thousands of messages every day that are sent by users to other users and never think of hallucinations as you think, note: Bitcointalk admin is not the type of person who likes to read other members private messages, a lot of other work he has to do in forums or in real world.

your hallucinations are exaggerated, by chance you sent a message and at the same time your post was deleted, of course based on other user reports.

OP, Admin of course can read your private messages, if you message him, if you send other members, nothing to do with them, try to relax a bit, one degree of wine and one packet of popcorn included.