I'm sure you meant to add NOT somewhere in there...

Anyway, the only way to understand what's going on and not let your emotions get the better of you is to learn, watch and practice! Yup, no one said it will be easy but this is practically the pain each trader goes when they start off.

It will be a bumpy journey but just make sure it gets less bumpy along the way, because with time you'll be able to understand the markets and position yourself accordingly. Don't expect it to happen overnight though - gotta be patient and be practicing