Please refrain from any condescending comments to anyone going through this. If you've read my previous threads you see that I acknowledge I messed up. Therefore, I really don't need the "I told you so's". I'm already dealing with enough.
I expressed regret for your loss, I don't know what else I could do to help you in the situation you are in. Unfortunately, no one here can help you get things back to square one, you messed up and this will be a very expensive life lesson for you. Good luck with the nodes, I hope someone will give you the right advice.