That's called addiction my friend. Some of us think that addiction is for gambling only but it can be for anything
Indeed. Addiction can happen in varied things, not only in gambling. But for the case above, not sure if OP is addicted to trading or not. The problem of the OP is a lack of learning or evaluating his trading ways. Also, he seems to trade with emotional by using huge capital without knowing proper strategies.
You must not trade again until you natural feel to trade and I would suggest you to open a demo account
What do you mean by "natural feel"?
In my opinion, what he must do is to learn how to control his desire/emotional. When he has the ability to do it, he can return to trade. However, to have good self-control isn't an easy thing to master, he needs some time.