Well, that is a good amount, and congratulations!
It takes a lot of hard work and commitment to own a single bitcoin. I feel that your difficult times have arrived to test you, but don't forget to learn from your mistakes and educate yourself more so that you can correctly manage the money you have invested and prevent losing and regretting because understanding the potential of what you have will allow you to make the best use of it. Take control of your bitcoin, and whatever you do with it, I hope it will not disappoint you.