I have been constantly criticized by many on this forum. I have been called fake, pseudo-intellectual and even closed-minded. I never bothered to address these claims because there was never anything to refute. They were simply untrue. Although I valued the opinions and tried to understand them to the extent that I believed the speaking individual was a rational human being. I believed all human beings looked for the truth as I do.
It seems I have again made the mistake of putting too much faith in my fellow man. It seems--as I am--that we are all fallible.
The other day I acted on impulse. I gambled all my money on Bitcoinduit because of a mere possibility; a mere possibly over certainty of money in my hand. I realized my mistake quite quickly and I accepted it as I've always done with my life over the past couple of months. I am nearly free of desire. When I am not, I accept it just the same. There is no room in a peaceful life for shame.
I have no shame in knowing and speaking with the goddamn idiots on SomethingAwful and on this forum. I have no shame in sharing the same digital space with people who think they know what's best for my life. I have no shame in sharing my life with people who deny truth over convenience every chance they get.
I accept all of you for who you are and thank you for what you have given me: The experiences and the knowledge I come to enjoy to this day.
Night.
One day you will wake up and realize that all this psychological hardship you put yourself through is simply of your own creation. All your pet conspiracy theories which pit you as the underdog against The System will unravel. You'll question why all the people you listen to on the radio who talk about the end of fiat dollars only accept fiat dollars in exchange for their goods.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...It Gets Better.