I express my deepest sympathy to you. It's very unfortunate that this happened to you, especially when the price of bitcoin is so high that you can really get depressed because of this event. But I'll tell you what - many people, for their own reasons, often threw away their old computers and laptops and then realized that there was a fortune left in bitcoins. I think that you should not think about it a lot - you need to live on and get the most out of your situation. Thanks for sharing your story.