It’s been a while I’ve felt like this, feels bad, disgusting but nothing new. I am faking 30 years old, when you get 30 and until you get there life is not going to get better, you are going to feel and get to know a lot of bad shit, meet a lot of shit people and get more and more disappointed in what the world is like.
You can't control all of your circumstances. You can only control your actions and your outlook. These may be limited powers, but they are often all someone needs to find happiness.