When I lose a large amount of money, I get very sad. I don't cry (because men shouldn't cry). I am also not aggressive (I am a very kind and friendly person).
However, I have little contact with friends and acquaintances. At the same time, I am a very sociable and cheerful person. However, after a big loss in an online casino, you do not want to communicate with anyone.
You don't seem to find any indication of strange thoughts or things about losing before betting at the casino tables, what you are experiencing is the after-lose effect on gambling and all gamblers also behave the same way, preferring to stay isolated in their rooms and not interact with other people unless necessary.
I had a period in my life when I played roulette in an offline casino.
At the same time, I celebrated every victory by drinking a glass of absinthe. At the same time, I was absolutely sure of my winnings. Where did this confidence come from? I don't know...
And I did win every time (I bet on red/black). I felt incredible confidence in my luck. But as the inebriation intensified, my confidence waned. And I started losing. My mood deteriorated accordingly.
But I couldn't stop and continued to play. In the end, overnight I lost all the money I had.
The only money I didn't lose at the casino was the money I spent buying absinthe...