I am in utter disbelief we just shouldn't be here.

You are right. But markets give 0 fucks about that.
I am just angry that every penny of capital I have either already IS bitcoin, or I need for my family and cannot risk, though the risk grows smaller and smaller.
Same here, I got 5.5 btc and $10,000 left in checking. Maybe I should get one of those bitcoin backed loans to buy more bitcoin.