I think we have the same feelings bruh, i started in bitcoin since 2015, although not that much older, but i have the same feeling as you, i tried my best doing what I've learned from other by watching them, i tried trading, i invested 350$, from the beginning i earned a little bit, then since bitcoin is going to crash down in 2018, i loose my chance, my friend is doing well, they started building their own house, then buy they dream bikes. So i get jealous. Im 😢 feel you bro