So sorry mate I know the kind of depression that follows it, that's journey in the Bitcoin and cryptocurrency space when you don't HODL, each day we either learn from our mistakes or learn from other people's mistake. sometimes we fall on the process of doing learning or doing new things, falling on the process of doing something is normal, but when you fall and not getting up to identify why you have fallen and take a different approach to that is when you have failed, Mate! Rise up and use your past mistakes as a lesson to rise and never fall again for same story.