I cam see that all you have been doing so far is to gamble. As a trader you don't have to trade the way you are doing it which is obviously a weak and poor way to trade the market. I think many traders that had followed this pattern of trading are no more in the market again and they have ended up losing all there funds. You need to stop this kind of trading and go learn the art of trading so you can trade with confidence and not been panic or the market next move because you are very sure about what you are doing.
Trading is more of skills than trying your luck to see if you can make some profits and later losing it due to uncertainty of what you are really doing because the method you are using is not safe at all and can make you lost everything of care is not taken into consideration.
This is what trading all about, it's like we are playing gambling but I think his mistake there is that he don't use any kind of analysis but he only follows his own instincts and what is worst is that he also choose high risk when doing a leverage trade.
It's not that what he was doing is bad but I think there are traders who are successful with it. It's just the op simply lacks on experience and knowledge that is why he fails to profit continuously. He is not weak but weak are those who didn't come back here anymore because they can't accept what happened to their money. As we can see the op is willing to learn and improve his trading performance.