I do not have the total of how much I've won with the games I gamble with. But I can say that it's near to breaking even. As much as I want to win most times, it's not working for me. I win some and lose also some whenever I do and that's sort of enjoyable to me because I'm not at a total loss but having fun doing it. The same goes for real-life of gamble, there's no sheet on me on how much I am spending, losing, and winning.
I think you don't have much experience in gambling. Because of which you cannot predict which side your win will be higher. So you mostly lose. But if your intention is just to have fun and losing money is not a problem for you then it doesn't matter. Keep enjoying but don't get addicted to it