so I think now I just need to think about how I can get one of the other conditions, which is merit. It may take a long time, but I'm sure it will be achieved.
You don't have to think about how to get Merit. just do what you like in this forum. like you usually do. There is no need to force it or even think about it until you may find it difficult to fall asleep.
The rank will come to you automatically without you asking. it's only a matter of time for you. the more you become obsessed and pursue Merit. it will only make you more depressed. just enjoy the process. many other members who will appreciate your post.