To be honest, my relationship with my father is not very close but not too far either. my father sometimes always advised me well, my father always worked diligently to provide for the family, and I admired his hard work. and I make that as a motivation, so that I always fight and not give up.

Seeing all the struggles of my parents, I really want to make them happy and repay them one day. Even though I know his flaws and ugliness, he is still my father.

take the good and throw away the bad.

family circumstances are different. and I hope OP will always be patient so that your father's behavior, I know it's difficult but at least he is still your father who has cared for you as a child. so keep spirit and stay patient, O.P.