Egomaniacal tirade? Check. Entanglement in a web of half-truths? Check. Contradictions even within the same sentence? Check.
Try humility some time. It's nice to have respect.
I have gotten pretty far by being myself. Humility is for the insecure. It is only a virtue to the weak and the enslaved. I do not obey and I do not submit. I recognize and revere the virtues and accomplishments of others while retaining my value as a human being. I am not lower than any cause, entity or person. I only act and love out of my existence. To provide value is to be of value and that I shall remain.
It's like seeing a piano student try to play like Rachmaninov: he hits
most of the right notes but the rhythm is completely off and it all sounds stilted and broken.
Atlas, you do not sound intelligent when you write like this. Your sentences don't flow at all and most of the longer words that you use don't quite mean what you think that they do. Your grammar and syntax are "good" in that they follow grammatical rules in a mechanical sense but none of it strings together well; a copy-editor would slap the shit out of you. Worse, when you write this sort of confused paragraph on how great you are and how humility is for those who lack confidence, you merely come across as immature and/or stupid.
Oh, and saying that you're not "insecure" is just silly: you've created a dozen accounts to hide your mistakes and you've threatened suicide on these forums. If you were truly secure in who you are, you'd make a mistake and be able to learn from it and walk on with your head held high instead of hiding it poorly behind a new persona that any idiot could spot because your writing style is so obvious. If you were able and experienced enough to be that secure then you wouldn't do/say any of the things that you have been.
You're a kid, be a kid. Step away from the computer, have fun with your youth, accept that you can be a dumbfuck sometimes (because, like all 17yos, you are), and stop trying to be a pompous adult.