I couldn't stop myself from crying as I read the entire story that you have presented in a small sample of the many things that happened in your life.  Your mother's illness and passing away forever is one of the first unexpected true events in life.  Then some unexpected events started in your life.  It is heartbreaking that you have lived through so much suffering due to illness at various times in your life.  Even if you don't know the many heartbreaking stories that happened in your life, the number of incidents that you have highlighted today will really bring tears to everyone's eyes.  Although I am unable to help you financially, I pray from the bottom of my heart to God for a speedy recovery.