Woah 
I've had a feeling that something has happened in the past years - I don't/didn't know when - but I couldn't think that it was this bad.
So sorry man. Stay strong and get well. Good luck with the surgery.

I can guess that it won't be an easy Christmas this year, but I certainly hope you'll celebrate it more properly (ok, without alcohol, but still...) in February!

Take the bright side of the situation: you've found out before it was too late.
Believe in your chance and, yeah, I'll be repeating that, stay strong!