Reading your story is one of the saddest things i have read on this forum ever. Whenever i see someone in pain/suffering, i usually have this feeling or rather wish that i had some superpowers to just make everything go away, and reading your OP i swear i damn felt that way. It is sad to see someone who had given quite a lot to the Bitcointalk/Bitcoin community going through something like this, my heart goes out to you, and definitely you'll be a significant part of my prayers for the forseeable future. Smile mate, i have this feeling inside of me that everything is going to be fine, and we'd see you here post surgery next year. So much love mate.