no one actually knows how or what is going on with people until they truly open up and share a little insight to their world. Sir in your story shared, i must say truly you are a real fighter and have fighting ever since to outwith the snears of life. As i read your story i felt really sad because life has not been all that fair to you. Life is just full of surprises and changes  so i pray that it surprises you and changes your whole situation for you in a good way. Sir hope you get well soon and recover with speed as you have been and still a figure of impact to the life of many other people around. Wishing you a speedy recovery sir.