I am so sad after reading all your history @yahoo62278, you have more contribution in this forum and helped many people trough become Bounty Manager, actually you have many altcoin bounties worth and helped many people earn much money trough joining with your campaign. I believe one day after darkness there must be light with your healthy problem.

Controlling your activities, don't forget exercising and exploring your hobbies maybe can help how focus with your recovery, everything have possibility and you have chance get healthy back.