Yahoo62278, you have told something which no one ever thought. No one could have imagined what could be going on with you and also it shows that human being is helpless against nature.

I do hope you get better after your final surgery early next year.

What you have been going through is something that only you can feel and understand. Once you will be back to normal life and this phase of life is over, what changes will you want to make in life?  I am asking this because I know people who are in such situations knows the reality of life and their advice/words mean a lot as they speak from the heart.