The more I learn I am kind of coming to conclusion that trading in the long run is not profitable.
I thought the more you learn, the more you know that trading is profitable but I was wrong, and I think also that this is not for you OP.
I mean I don't know any single person who is doing decent amount of money for living by trading in crypto. Hence the question: do you know anyone who is successful trading in crypto? or are you doing well by trading crypto?
I believe in rumors, not news, and the ads we've seen on the internet but I was certain that many traders have a decent income from trading. Yes, not all went well, and not all survive (just like you) but there are a few traders who successfully win their emotions and reach their goal. But as I see into your story, it was hopeless as you already think that you fail in trading.