The last sentence is really worrying as it seems it is a pattern for you, most gamblers at some point lose more than what they could afford and chase their losses, but after losing they get back to their senses, they understand that what they did was wrong and they take steps to avoid doing this again.

However in your case it seems you are advocating to chase your losses, which is a very dangerous behavior, and this is because even if you won this time and you recovered your money there is no way to make sure this will be the case, and the next time you do this you could just dig a bigger hole for yourself and lose even more money.