Mate bear this in mind that no matter the depth of the situation we plunge ourselves into suicide is not an option and that's because there's always a better solution or solution's to any problem. You have mad a mistake quite alright but don't make another mistake which is suicide. There have been people that had gone through worst situation than yours but then they never saw suicide as an option ,now today they're stand tall and have overcome the whole issues that weighed them down and I believe yours can be resolved but not through suicidal thoughts,factor that energy of suicidal thoughts to ways of getting solution and you will be 90% way to clearing your debts already and living comfortably. Okay!