<...> I miss the opportunity in 2014 because I feel it was a scam, am I missed the opportunity, look at me today, investing in some alt that wanted to give me high b.p
I must buy bitcoin today, I really don't know if someone else is experiencing the same thing out there?
Have you known about this market since 2014 and haven't bought yet? Think carefully about what you are doing, because from what you say about the altcoin, it seems to me that you are an impulsive person who gets carried away by the ups and downs of the moment and is buying cryptocurrencies like someone who goes to the casino to try their luck. If you buy bitcoin, you'd better do it with money you won't need for years and with a lot of patience. If you don't have a lot of money, it's worth making regular small purchases, as recommended.
In any case, I wouldn't call that procastination, but rather making the wrong decisions over a long period of time.