Regarding merit, I don't want to ask excessively which leads to begging.
But is it possible if I ask to review my post history. Does it look too much or too bad?
But I feel that being able to get merit is very difficult even though there are several threads made for users who want to get merit with terms and conditions that must be obeyed.
Op I understand you but for saying you don't want to ask for merit excessively meaning you are begging merit already, but that not withstanding, there is time for everything. Your time is coming to make in the forum. Be patient. An author can not Review his own work because he might not know the mistakes he has done but if another person did that, the person can figure out some errors from the writers work. There are some Merit Sources that give conditions to give Merits and you are to follow up the conditions.