Are you a mama's boy? I feel bad because all of your decision in your life is always chosen by your mother.
When you're really want to eat a pizza, your mama will forbid it and say it's not good for your health. When you're want to hangout with your friends into a club, your mama will forbid it and say there's no good reason to go. When you're fall in love with a girl, your mama will forbid it because she's jealous and will threat you're a rebellious child.
Learn to be mature and make sure no one can control your decision especially in financial.
Some people are like that, their parents will take them so close and make them so special that most times it's impossible for them to make independent decisions. My mom loved me so much in my childhood days but most times she will encourage me to man up and take decisions and she also taught me how to embrace the consequences of any such decisions I made.
She achieved this by refusing to give me some advice when I ask from her. She will tell me that she is a woman that such thing I ask from her is supposed to be handled by myself. She will allow me make mistakes and correct them.
In the other hand, my dad saw me as a born genius, he doesn't find fault neither does he caution me in any steps I take.
Op, some disappointments are lessons. Bitcoin is still here and bitcoin is affordable. The ball is in your cut.