when i was kids, i need to study very hard, to get a lot of score in the test. if i got a zero mark in a math test, i am very scare to go home and show the test paper to my mum.
when i am grown up, i have kids and wife now, i need to work very hard, to get a lot of money in the job. if i got a paycut, or i got fired, i am very scared to go home, i can't sleep well, my head is sweating, the memory of getting zero mark in a test keep haunting me like the nightmare, i need to go out and make a lot of money!!
tell me anything i need to do to make a lot of money. doesn't matter what, i would do anything to get all the money, even if it mean unlawful and unethical!
A little funny reading this thread, why, yes considering my almost similar childhood. I don't remember the details, but the upbringing of parents then and now is very different. we are taught not only about formal lessons at school, but there are many values of life, whether ethics, culture, religion, hard work, desire, intention, and whatever it is we must have good grades. if not, there will be consequences of punishment from my parents. my parents' upbringing patterns in the past, embedded in my personal life.
The point is, if we want to produce results, we have to work hard to make it happen. that's why, I prefer the old school pattern even though it's too harsh.
referring to what you said, I do not know what is the essence of the problem you are facing. but believe me if you open yourself a little more and explore the potential that is within you, you will find something you want. at least, it's better than you despair with the fear you face. Anxiety that is too high becomes a separate problem that can prevent you from becoming much more developed. You can do many ways, yep, to get money, however, there are ways to make it happen. It's not easy indeed, but in order for your financial economy to be better, you yourself determine the answer. In fact, fate is in your own hands.