when i was kids, i need to study very hard, to get a lot of score in the test. if i got a zero mark in a math test, i am very scare to go home and show the test paper to my mum.
when i am grown up, i have kids and wife now, i need to work very hard, to get a lot of money in the job. if i got a paycut, or i got fired, i am very scared to go home, i can't sleep well, my head is sweating, the memory of getting zero mark in a test keep haunting me like the nightmare, i need to go out and make a lot of money!!
tell me anything i need to do to make a lot of money. doesn't matter what, i would do anything to get all the money, even if it mean unlawful and unethical!
I think that your childhood traumas were caused by your parents or other authority figures making unrealistically high demands of you because they were taught the same way and they think that such an upbringing must somehow be right. It is more important for you to overcome this trauma before you can live a happy life. Unless you live in a place with extreme poverty, getting a job after being fired is not hard. You just have been conditioned to be fearful of failure. But failure is important. It teaches us and makes us greater. Would your family starve if you had to find a new job? Would something terrible happen if you were to get a bad grade? No. That failure would have forced you to find a new path for success. Perhaps even a better path.
There are situations in our lives on which it is really that something that affects us totally or generally because we arent get used to things like this or like that. For some people then it wouldn't really be that much of
an issue but for those people who hadnt been able to experience those hardships would really be totally in panic on the time that they are really such on a certain condition which we cant really blame them. We dont know the story behind and this is why its not really that ideal to be judgemental specially on OP that he might seems to be totally scared on why he is really that pursuing on having money more.
If we do speak or talk about the present thing on which if he had been able to spend up the money which it should really be remitted into his wife then it would really be a sure problem.
If you are still that anticipating for possible problem due to lack of money then it would be wise that you should really be thriving on having other source of income so that you would be able to avoid such problem.