Do you drink alcohol? I recently quit and feel great! For me this is related to Bitcoin, since I am much more optimistic about the future, and have some brain left to learn all about blockchains and smart contracts. How about you, are you doing well on most days
This is literally screaming stop doing dumb shit with your money. Rather put it into Bitcoin. Like a popular saying goes, do not waste your money buying trending stuff just to impress those people who you don't like or rather people who do not give a damm about your existence.
Many wise people will follow the path of the OP is you can quit alcohol or any other addiction that is taking your money and energy to learn and invest in Bitcoin, reduce it