im loaded on pain meds from a back fusion.. and just as i recall when i was addicted to opioids many many decades ago, that pain relief can come with an unholy cost. glad i (just barely) beat it then. hope to beat it again and be off the opioids in a few more days.
Have you tried cannabis to augment or replace the opioids? If you administer it rectally it bypasses the liver and you don't get high. I take massive doses daily to ease my COPD. I use refined oil with equal parts THC and CBD buffered with cacao butter. That would probably work well for pain relief but maybe more THC would be better.
Of course you can always add more moderate doses orally or by inhalation if you want to get blasted. Sometimes dissociative analgesia helps.
Get well soon.