OP is not very good at applying some of the basics, especially in implementing financial management, so he is experiencing difficulties like now. When it comes to this long-lasting bear market, I think there will be a lot of people who are also really hoping for a bull market to come in the not too distant future. But that's what happened, we have to wait longer to see something like that.
Here, our mentality will play an important role in determining our own future. And it seems like the OP didn't prepare enough, including looking for additional income that should have been done even before the undesirable thing happened.

Things like this must be prepared from the start, lest we confuse ourselves later. Or if we really can't take it anymore, then the best step is to stop trading for a while.